“We then that are strong ought to bear the infirmities of the weak, and not to please ourselves (Romans 15:1).”
Below is an article based on a college student, a female who Miller, whose age has not been disclosed, attended an HBCU college in Baton Rouge, Louisiana.
The Southern University Jaguars cheerleader shared a lengthy message that worried her family and friends on her Instagram account.
In the post that has now accumulated over 65,000 likes, Miller spoke about alleged suicidal thoughts during her younger years and how long she has fought the urges.
Her Letter
“May this day bring me rest and peace,” Miller wrote. “I have fought this urge since my early teenage years… I gave this life all the fight I had. To everyone who has entered my life, I’m so grateful and I can only imagine how this may find you. I have been surrounded by people who may have honestly thought that I was okay, but I haven’t been okay for a while.”
The college student then reflects on dealing with Covid, suffering from an injury and feeling alone most of the time.
“I struggled so much through just this year alone. From covid to tearing my ACL, to nearly failing all of my classes,” Miller wrote. “To the people in my life, I pray you to learn to vocalize your feelings and get help always!!! I failed at that and I’m afraid it’s too late.”
Her Mother
Miller then talks directly to her mother, who she thanks and reassures her that she is at peace and acknowledges that she had written suicidal notes before, but she was at her breaking point this time.
“MOM, THANK YOU SO MUCH, I pray you know I’m at rest now! You would’ve given anything to see me happy, you have given everything to see me happy,” Miller wrote. “I’m happy in the water where everything is still and peaceful. I have written so many suicide notes in my life but finally, I’ve reached my end.”
She wrote that she hoped that this would teach people to check on their “strong” friends and always be present. Miller said that she felt like she was letting so many people down and losing her connection to God.
Check on Friends
“I hope this teaches everyone to check on your “strong” friends, be present always! I’m contradicting myself but NEVER give up!!! I know that I’m letting a lot of people down by what I’m about to do,” Miller wrote. “But… truth is I’ve already let down so many people throughout my life and it just feels unbearable. I’ve lost my connection to God. The devil seems to have won. & And that is okay, I blame no one for this!”
She concluded her post by apologizing to all of her family and friends, revealing that she has tried to make everyone in her life happy. While she loved everyone in her life, she had had enough fighting and hoped that those close to her found peace in her decision.
Pleading
“I thank everyone for all they’ve done & IM SORRY IM SO SO SORRY. But thinking about how everyone else would feel about my death is not enough either, I’ve tried to please and make everyone else happy my entire life. I’ve been dead inside for too long. To everyone I love, just remember that this is not your fault and I pray you don’t find guilt in my situation,” Miller wrote. “To my grandad… I wish you were here to tell me I’m being stupid, to tell me it’s not worth it, but you’ve left me & found your own peace.”
“I’ve always been stubborn and prideful just like you,” she continued. “I always dreamed of becoming so many things that I am today, but they just aren’t enough. I’m not enough. I haven’t felt enough for a while… but I say all this to say, I’m done fighting. My battle is over and I pray everyone finds peace in that.”
The Southern University and A&M college released a statement via Twitter expressing their deepest sorrows for Miller’s untimely passing, noting that she was a Texas native and majoring in agriculture.
Romans 15:1
The apostle Paul wrote to the Romans that those who are strong should bear the infirmities of those who are weaker. In a world ruled by Satan, we are taught and groomed to make poor people feel worthless. We are taught to make the sick feel horrible about being sick.
We have the next-man-up mentality and often do not worry about the man next door or the woman. Paul urged that we please our neighbors and it is a pleasing thing to be checked on, to be cared for, and to be thought about.
Yes, our lives take us every which way, another design of Satans’ to keep us away from checking on young girls like Arlana Miller. A beautiful life gone, but not forgotten; hopefully, her letter helps bring attention to us that we need to think of one another, pray for one another, and love one another. Amen
Elder Ishe / Brthr Nhmyh
BibleStudyMinistry.com
